i admit that i like to have my past as present as possible,
i am not going to say 'i just cant help to remember'
i believe that i like it,
it gives me this feeling that its not gone..
i have a lot of trouble letting go, its just so hard for me to believe that feelings fade,
its so hard for me to accept that things have to change,
because people always told me things change for the better,
but i see no better in losing so many people,
in not laughing like i used to,
in being so cold,
in feeling so alone..
i know better, i know we have to let go, but i guess im scared, and anyways
its easier to not let go when theres no reason to let go,
there is nothing better out there for me than those memories,
those memories are what keep me going,
i never imagined my life so amazing like it used to be,
and remembering that is was gives me faith that one day it will be again..